As he looked at me he waved his fine long tail and smiled. And that beak, exquisite! It's quiet here this spring. Well today I ate a wonderfully rich and creamy slice of cheddar for my breakfast. Just for today I will free myself from my self-inflicted burden of guilt, for deep in my heart I know if there was anything in this world I could of done to save my child from death, I would of done it.